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After Suppu's words Adhira could realise, that she didn't focus on anything apart from Sahat. 'Yes, am happy to get married to Sahat. But first I should concentrate in my own happiness' the other side of her heart said, 'Don't you think that he is your happiness?' the other part replied furiously, 'certainly not. He came in our life just before few months, we had and still have many other things in our life to  make us happy. Yes being with him make us happy but not only being with him make us happy. Stop thinking like a stupid teenage girl who could mess up her professional, personal and love life like a movie' the other part again had a confusion, 'Do I really love him? Should I want to get married to him?' the other side started convince this part, 'Yes we are getting married. What Suppu said is the unavoidable truth. We like him, he is a good guy and there is nothing wrong in getting married to him'. When Adhira went through al...

Shruthi went through thoughts throughout the walk to help her sister but she could find no way to help her sister but she had a perfect plan of explaining this to mom. After completing their walk, both the sisters made themselves fresh and again headed to their work of packing Adhira's essentials. The packing process went through recollection of almost all the incidents that happened in their life.  They packed everything and arranged the packages in a separate room. They kept some essential things for the remaining days before marriage. Now Adhira's room appealed clean, but Adhira could see the void in her room. Not only in her room but also in her heart.  Every corner looked clean but she felt like missing something.  Mom and Dad reached home by the evening after completing all the inviting works.  As soon as they reached home dad got a call and he headed towards the office. Mom made herself comfortable in the bed, her back supported with a pi...

Sun just peeped at the earth and made sunshine in everyone's life. There Shruthi is struggling with Adhira to wake her up. Adhira slept comfortably in her uncomfortable room filled with scattered old clothes, wedding things, half packed boxes, open cupboards with clothes having a thought to stay back to the cupboard on their half way to meet the floor. "Akka get up we need to go for walking" Shruthi screamed in Adhira's ears but nothing could help Shruthi with no way left Shruthi switched off the fan. Adhira needed the sound from fan more than the breeze from it. With closed eyes Adhira woke and made her get ready for the morning walk. Both the sisters shared lots of things during the walk. After some regular comical communication Shruthi initiated the topic about Sahat. "Akka why you never accepted Sahat's invite for a date? don't say that you are not sure whether you are loving him or not. We can see the excitement in your face when you see him. ...

After completing mom's special ginger tea, Sahat entered his room to get changed to his casuals. While changing he heard his phone ringing with the name Dhira.  But he could not pick the call at that situation as his head and hands  were stuck with the t-shirt. With hurry he made himself comfortable and just fell on the bed to take the call. Hopefully he took it before the last ring. Now Sahat's tone was filled some energy as he felt no guilty for the incident that happened in Adhira's home. Before Sahat could say hello, Adhira started the conversation with a happy tone. "Sahat.. what happened Pooja texted me in a normal way. Now am feeling comfortable but why did she behaved like that? I was totally confused. Did I made any mistake?" She kept on building the questions but Sahat was astonished, 'How can she talk with such a flow. She never spoke like this to me. Even in those calls he could get her happy tone. But now her voice is super happy. Hope everythi...

"Hey first try to understand that your act of expressing possessiveness in a rude way only lead to breakage of the relationship and before you can hurt someone just think from their perspective. Answer the question 'what would  you do if you were in their situation? before you react'" Sahat's tone was so tender but the words were pronounced in a way that Pooja could not stop accepting that facts that he said. 'Should I want to ask her sorry. But no, how can I face her now. She would have been hurt but that is what I needed but now am regretting my thoughts. How would she react if I ask her sorry.' Pooja's heart underwent through lots of but's and if's. Now Sahat felt comfortable on Pooja's silence. He could get her thoughts through her expression. How  beautiful these relationships are? You don't need to pronounce your feel your loved one can get them just with your expressions. Both of them didn't know how time w...

Sahat could see Pooja standing with furious face. He didn't know what made her to throw her face to Adhira. But he was sure about one thing. Shouting at her never makes the situation good, he wanted to analyse her feel. And he felt that as his responsibility. Without asking any question Sahat drove the car. The siblings travelled with a cold calmness. On the way Sahat could see the struggle of his sister to rollback the overflowing tears. Her cheeks were shivering, nose consciously shrunken to control the rolling tears. But what made her to worry this much? Her struggle made him understand that she have been hurt and there is no artificial expressions in her face. Sahat wanted to ask the reason for her melancholy but he was scared for that too. 'She always take things complicated. If I convince her now she will scream at me, if don't convince her she would scream at me. Anyways Sahat you are going to get some heart piercing screams but please be mentally prepa...

     After staring at the situation for seconds Adhira could find that girl was Sahat's sister and her would be sister-in-law Pooja. She prepared herself to not express her excitement and came out with fake calmness to welcome Sahat.      She admired the way he spoke to her parents. She admired his smile, the way he kept his mobile inside the pocket, the way he lifted his left eyebrow and everything. She could feel the chill that comes, when air touches our skin after steaming for some minutes in her heart. To others vision she looked normal but inside she could realise the changing temperatures. She realised the warmth in her cheeks.      With lots of struggles on hiding her excitement she managed to say, "Hi.. " to him with eye contact for a fraction of second. His warm smile with eye contact expressed his acceptance of her welcome.      The way Sahat met her eyes made her realise how special she is to him. Before Sah...

Adhira: Do I really love him? Sathya: You are too early my dear. You should have ask this after a baby Adhira: ……… Sathya: Okay now let me why do you rise this kind of question just before two weeks of your wedding? Adhira: Umm, what will you do when your would be husband call you for a date? Sathya: Without any doubts I would go for a date 😍 and I would make that day a special one. Adhira : But when Sahat asked me to hang out  with him for a movie I just hesitated that. But am sure  that I didn't had any intension to avoid him but I was not excited as like every other girls. What do you think about my feelings for him? If it was any other girl she would have accompanied him for the movie. Sathya : Wait, what? Accompany? Adhira : Yes what's there with that? Sathya : A girl would enjoy her man's company not accompany him. (Those words from Sathya haunted Adhira) Adhira: Look, you got the answer. Now tell me do I love him? Adhira,...

 Adhira saw her mom doing some calculations by sitting in a swing that is wrapped with the climbers that gave beauty to the surrounding with its purple and pink fragile flowers. She felt glad on seeing her daughter with the same cheerfulness that she could find whenever she comes back home in the evening after classes. "Mom I have bought you something to share our memories." by saying these words Adhira handed the test papers to mom. Now it was mom's turn to get excited. Yes these little things mattered them the most. Mom started to say those with a bright smile, "You know Adhira you always ask me ',ma please give me five minutes of break time am getting bored' and I too allow you to go for break. You go to our neighbor's house to play and to my astonishment you were always punctual. You will come after five minutes and I would give you a warm cup of milk. After finishing it, I don't need to remind you, you will do your home works without any argum...

    Everyone in her family was happy with the decision that they decided for her. But she is unsure is she capable of doing a responsible role in a family and importantly she is analysing the thing that can she love a guy with all her soul? and how good can she perform the role of a wife? She loved the rushing people to give her relationship advises, the way her family treated her as the bride, the shopaholic days and everything that were building up her wedding. It was two weeks before her wedding, she packed all her stuffs with the help of her sister. "Hey Dhira do you know how excited I am about your wedding? " said Shruthi with her chin supported with her left hand and mouth chewing their mom's special upputtu. "How many times I have asked you to call me by my full name? have you ever did that. At least in this two weeks don't irritate me am already scared " shouted Adhira. "This is too mean akka. You always allow Sahat to call you by this na...